why ?

Sometimes i feel so cunfuse, why my life could be this hard ? Why can't i just be like anybody who seems like they really easy to get anything they want and specially what they've been dream of ? Yeah, i know, most of them are tried so hard also to get that, but they'll get that yet anyway. Why i can't be like one of them ? I also tried so hard to get those, does my effort isn't hard enough to count ?

Am i don't deserve to anything i want and i dream ?

am i don't eligible enough to get those ?

I'm so exhausted and feel like i want to quit. But if i quit, everything that i've been through will be so useless, and i don't want to let myself to do that.

But...

Oh, i don't even know what i should do right now.

If only i have someone to share with RIGHT NOW and RIGHT BESIDE ME. Not you who far, far, away from me, hikz...

Oh, yes, i'm perfectly human who ever has her time to be sad and feel so down. You can not expect me to always put that smiley face every minutes.

i'm perfectly human...

Please, let me feel this feeling for a while, i promise i'll get better soon.

Smell you later, guys =)


PS:

i kind of trying to improve my english. It's bad, really. But at least i tried !! So from now on, i will only write my blog in english, let me learn it, okay ? So for whoever you are, who doesn't understand english, i pretty much sure that you will understand mine, coz it's a very simple vocabularies i have and i used =D